"Quick Lets Leave

Before The Lights Come On

Cos then you don't have to see, 
What you've done,"

I don't want my mistakes to see the light,

I feel horrible doing them

but a part of me doesn't want to stop

it's all a game to Me, a game I know Im gonna lose

but for the time being I love how its working out,

the thrill of having it all, and being in control of it all.

but its a job for me to keep all of it up.

But when it all blows up in My face it's game over,

and that's how I look at a lot of things

i think every thing's temporary and not even worth worrying about

but i need to focus on the big picture and how and who it affects.

But Im gonna enjoy my fun and when that day comes Ill be ready for it.

I Never Really Understood It

Till Now;

The greatest things I could possibly have I already have

In all my years Ive never appreciated what I have.

Ive always looked for something better

and it's about time I appreciate what I have now,

and do everything I can to keep the things that Ive worked hard for.

even if it took a little white dog and 16 years for Me to realize it.

Lesson learned and well needed Im gonna stop trying so hard to get more and more

and live with what I have now.

There's no use wasting your whole life trying to get what you can't have,

Or fixing what you broke,

That's Life,

Forget the broken past and build the perfect future.

Appreciate what you have now,

Who knows?, maybe you'll get more in the long run.

And Then

Reality kicked in within us
It seems as we become the winners 
You lose a bit of summat
And half wonder if you won it at all

It seems my goals and hopes have come true

but Im still not 100% happy

I know what I want but it's a battle I wont win.

but for the most part Im content 

She needs to give me some signs

so I know my next move.